At 50
Behind you, all your
memories.
Before you, all your
dreams.
Around you, all those
who love you.
Within you, all you
need.
With all of life's
trials and tribulations behind you,
enjoy all the dues
you've paid,
relax, smell the
flowers and appreciate the finer things in life.
And yes, just like
that, I am 50. But with only one or two, perhaps a maximum of three grey strands of
hair. No reason (and I don’t want) to dye or color my hair, which is naturally
straight and black. Lucky me.
At 50, I may not have
everything, my life is not perfect, but you don’t need everything, and you don’t
have to be perfect to be happy. I used to think I deserve this or that, but I
guess that’s being arrogant. I was taught a painful and heart-breaking lesson. Sometimes,
even if you think you have become smarter, you still make silly mistakes. I am
so humbled. I may not be in perfect health, but I’m doing alright. I am getting
by. And I am so thankful for the many people who have reached out to me, supported
me, opened themselves to me, shared their lives with me, and admired me for
being honest and real, and for being an inspiration. I shall continue to be true
to myself and share that side of me with you, if only to inspire people, and to
make a difference or touch one’s life. I only have a few close and good friends, but I
don’t need a lot, as I realized.
There's so much to thank for, so much
to remember and be happy for. Thank You, Lord, for my family (buong barangay, Acuña Capiz Monterola Baguiao Gilson), my husband and two beautiful children, my household, and my
friends and loved ones. Thank You for the good health, and for keeping us safe
and together. Thank You for my job. Thank You, Lord for everything, for Your
infinite blessings, for all the opportunities that came and will come my way.
Some of my prayers remained unanswered, I know now why. You sent me something
else, and gave me more, more than I deserved.
Thank you to the people who have been a part of my
journey. I may have lost some, but I am a winner in more ways than one. I found
some a little bit late but I will always take comfort in the belief that you
meet the people you're supposed to, when the time is right.
Thank you for all the reasons why I am happy and grateful. For the gift of laughter, for my gift of gab, for my sense of humor, for my kakikayan. For my faith, hope and love. For the kindness and generous spirit instilled in me. For my doctors. For K-Drama. For BTS. For my LV bags. For my bucket hats. And all my favorite things. For Your love, my Lord. Happy Birthday to me!
Thank you for coming into my life. I always
believed in the goodness of things, and that there is something good in every
thing that happens. Thank you for being the best thing. When I think of this, I
thank God and I can only think of happiness, and gratitude. And my heart is
full of joy.
#talesofthegoodgirl
