Tales of The Good Girl: #AgustD #DDay

Unexpected flaws piled up in layers create the afterimages of my multiple selves.

Not getting intimidated but rebelling and raising questions against contradictions of countless conditions the world demands.

---D-Day

#AgustD, how could you? How could your album mean so much?

If Jimin’s #FACE could make a person appreciate his weaknesses and vulnerabilities more, #Suga or AgustD’s #DDay will break your heart but will leave you fearless (that is, if you aren’t yet).

It was truly a perfect timing that I got to watch his Disney+ documentary #RoadToD-DAY first before getting to see his #AMYGDALA MV. The docu is all about his “journey to find new stories and inspire new dreams” as he creates his solo album. And it will make you understand and appreciate him more.

What do you think are the chances of a totally controllable future arriving?

There’s a high chance that the future you dreaded never happens.

This is the story I wanted to share with you.

People always worry about the uncertainty of the future. They fear it.

And they’re distressed over the past that they can’t change.

But the only thing you can control is the present.

I want to share stories that focus on the present.

The past is the past. The present is the present. The future is the future.

Put too much meaning into them and they will torment you.

It’s up to the listeners to judge my work, and only time will tell…

“I don’t know your name…” His painful memories - of his parents’ health, of his accident and injury, his mental health issues, his struggles. I now understand why he seems the most serious among the seven members of #BTS (in fact, his gummy smile is one in a million). And I didn’t realize how soothing and comforting his singing voice could be. No wonder, he is a top bias-wrecker.

#AMYGDALA brought tears to my eyes as I too recall my dark days when I myself was having depression and I didn’t know it yet that time. Darkness would envelop me, I didn’t know what was happening. And if you weren’t too mindful or if you won’t be able to figure out what was going on, it will make you do things that are not right. And coming out of it alive now, fear becomes just a word. Nothing will scare you anymore.

“Depression causes the hippocampus to raise its cortisol levels, impeding the development of neurons in your brain. The shrinkage of brain circuits is closely connected to the reduction of the affected part's function. While other cerebral areas shrink due to high levels of cortisol, the amygdala enlarges. The amygdala controls emotion, so this may cause issues like sleep disturbances, mood swings, and other hormone-related problems. An enlarged amygdala is also linked to the development of bipolar disorder.” (https://www.transformationstreatment.center/treatment/what-happens-to-the-brain-during-depression/)

He had a lot of heartbreaking experiences. And he tells us through his music that while we acknowledge those, these old demons must not rule us or have this power over us. "What didn't kill me only made me stronger...And I begin to bloom like a lotus flower once again..." Like a lotus flower, he bloomed beautifully above the mud and water.

In making music that comforts fans all over the world, idols don’t seem to have anyone to comfort them when it’s their turn to be alone, lonely and tired. #AgustD leaves a message to aspiring artists via #Snooze (ft. Ryuichi Sakamoto & WOOSUNG of The Rose):

“You who sleep for your dreams, it's okay to rest..””

Just laugh out loud

As if the world is leaving

Just hold on

Wherever you are

I hope your dream won't just be left as a dream

I'll cheer you on anytime, anywhere (Dream)…”

“You will fully bloom, after all the hardships

The beginning may be weak, but the end may be great…”

The lyrics of his songs may strike a painful chord, but there is calmness and healing in the end. #DDay reminds us that no matter how ugly some of our memories and past experiences are, liberation is waiting. Beautiful days will come and you will be free…

“The world’s bullshit, but you don’t have to be / So open your eyes and see the real world.”

#DDay is the third #AgustD release, after his self-titled 2016 mixtape and 2020's D-2.

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