Buhay ARMY

YOU FOUND ME. Woke up with a heavy feeling, and I assumed it was due to my antihistamine meds I took the night before.

Took a shower, had breakfast and paid my usual month-end bills and stuff. Couldn't use my Microsoft Office though, may problema, which was a bummer 😭 so wala muna ko excel, word, etc. Buset.

After a while, my tears would just fall, I don't know why. So I decided to just lock myself in my room, ignore everyone, curl up in my bed, until I'm good. Yes po, this is an example of a depressive episode 😔 madilim, malungkot, di mo maintindihan.

THEN, parang magic, Jungkook went on Weverse Live. Yun bang ilang beses na ko naisalba nitong mga batang ito na hindi nila alam. Ilang beses ninyo ba ko ililigtas ha, BTS? 💜

He sang Sing Street's To Find You, paulit ulit hanggang maperfect niya. Na hindi nya alam na gustong-gusto ko ang lyrics nito at yung MV 😭😭😭 lalong tumulo luha ko 😭😭😭

Thank you, JK, at sinamahan mo ako in a dark moment 💜💜💜 thank you for finding me...

So bring the lightning

Bring the fire, bring the fall

I know I'll get my heart through

Got miles to go but from the day I started crawlin'

I was on my way to find you...

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#BTSJungkook

#WeverseLive

#ToFindYou #SingStreet 

#talesofthegoodgirl #KPam

If I Never Met You...

"Don't worry for not being with us in the beginning, the day you found us is the day we debuted for you..."  - Min Yoongi 😻 

BTS has been around for 9 years but as they say, you will find them at the right time. True enough, they came into my life when I needed them the most. I was struggling with my health issues early 2021. At that time, I didn't know what was happening to me, going back and forth to doctors. In the meantime, I started to have cardio workouts with their music, got acquainted with their danceable hits, and I just thought, ililigtas nitong mga batang ito ang buhay ko. I never thought there would be mornings na pasayaw-sayaw ako with Dionysus or Boy with Luv or Mic Drop 😄

Tita, sino ung may green na mic sa BTS. Napopogihan ako, I found myself telling my Army sister. Took a while before I could tell who is who, parang magkakamukha silang lahat, you get my drift...Pag walang green mic, d ko na makilala ung napopogihan ko. Then, after a while, ahhh iba yung mata. And that sealed the luv affair. Yes, it was V (Taehyung).

Then I was diagnosed with AD and MDD. I was plunging into darkness, falling into the dark side. But still, there they were, pulling me out. And for this, I will forever be grateful. BTS does not know it, but they really saved my life just by being BTS. Their music, their presence, their talent, their good looks, their values, what they stand for...their humor, the closeness, the positivity and loving yourself...it's been a while since NKOTB na nagbuhos ako ng panahon to a band...and I just kept on being saved.

Never mind if I came in late. Ok lang. Ok na ko dun. 

Thank you kahit sandali pa lang akong Army. Purple became more meaningful to me. Sobra-sobra na ang ginawa ninyong pagsagip sa buhay ko. Yung keeping me sane and mentally safe during the pandemic...how you took me out of the dark many times...yun lang sapat na. Na I even got to meet fellow Armys, keber na sa age hahaha

Making us proud with your achievements (Blue House, UN, White House), yung journey ninyo over the years. Ibang klase. Pag pinapanuod ko sila, naiisip ko, hindi ba sila napapagod? Hindi naman na sila mga teenager para humataw nang ganun hahaha yung PTD concert lang eh...Hindi ba sila nagsasawa? Yung halos araw araw, ganun ang ginagawa nila? So ayun na nga...napapagod nga rin sila...

But they are doing this beautifully...gumawa na sila ng marami para marami tayong baon while they're pursuing their dreams individually...

Si Proof pa lang (na akala ko magkakaworld tour na uli)...

Looking forward to their solo albums, solo projects...Wooga Squad!!!

Finding the balance between whom we wish to be and whom we need to be. Ibigay na natin sa kanila. Sabi nga, if you want to find the trail, if you want to find yourself, you must explore your dreams alone...perhaps this is what they need at this point.

I wasn't with them in the beginning

But I will be, until the end and

For the rest of my life...

And this I think is more important to me 😭

Run free, boys...

Don't worry...when you look back, you will find us just right behind you...

#talesofthegoodgirl