Fan(Girl) Zone (My K-World)

Yung napapanuod  mo lang sila sa streaming apps, or sa movies na talagang first day showing ang hinahabol mo. Naiinlove ka sa acting (o sige na nga, sa kagwapuhan). Tapos ma-meet mo sila and ma-witness mo up close and personal yung sincerity nila, yung desire to make fans happy and fulfilled. Paglabas pa lang nila sa stage, tutulo ang luha mo. Promise. Sobrang sulit (kahit nauna nang maiyak ang wallet mo). Kahit minamadali kayo ng staff sa Goodbye Session, ang nagiging goal mo kasi is to comply sa strict rules nila, at hindi yung nakafocus ka sa pagHi at pag-Bye LOL

As I’ve posted, #OKTAECYEONinMNL2023 #SpecialTY is my happiest and luckiest and most fun and most fulfilling fan meet (although 5^th FM ko pa lang naman). Yung ilang araw na nakalipas, nakangiti ka pa rin and chinecheck mo lahat ng related posts – X, Instagram, Facebook, TikTok. At lalo mo silang minamahal. Kahit mahal silang mahalin LOL Yung isang ticket na 8k-10k, pang one-week grocery mo na.

Born and bred fangirl ako and I am not embarrassed to admit it. In fact, sobrang tinolerate ako ng tatay ko mula bata pa ko. My late father would always accompany me – sa paghanap ng bahay ni Francis Magalona sa Mandaluyong, sa pagbabad sa ULTRA/Rizal Memorial, and sa radio program ni Romy Kintanar nung araw to see my favorite basketball players/RP Team, sa pag-attend ng concerts naming magkakapatid (New Kids on the Block, Fra Lippo Lippi, Keno, Bon Jovi, Gloria Estefan, among others). Yung mga trip ko nun, sinasakyan ng Papa ko. It didn’t matter kung hatid-sundo ang peg, maghihintay sya or sila ni Mama sa parking or somewhere or babalik na lang sila. Basta sasamahan nya ako / kami.

One thing I have learned (and accepted) though, kahit na super super fan ka, marerealize mo (and may makikilala ka) na mas super super super fan than you are. Kala mo #1 fan ka? Hindi rin LOL “There's always somebody out there crazier than you.” And hindi mo sya masisisi.

• ·       January 22, 2023 – Kim Seon Ho, Mall of Asia Arena
• ·       April 16, 2023 – Lee Jong Suk, PICC Plenary Hall
• ·       June 16-18, 2023 – Team Labas, AgustD D-Day Tour, Singapore Indoor Stadium
• ·       July 2, 2023 – Cha Eun Woo, Smart Araneta
• ·       August 6, 2023 – Jung Hae In, New Frontier Theater
• ·       September 23, 2023 – Ok Taec Yeon, New Frontier Theater
• ·       October 1, 2023 – Twice, Philippine Arena
• ·       Next??? Sana masundan pa ng marami, Lord
• ·       Bye Park Seo Joon, Ahn Hyo Seop, Lee Jun Ho for now
• ·       Choi Woo Shik (11/16) - may katiting na pag-asa pa
• ·       Park Hyung Sik (TBA) - sayo na nakataya budget ko

#BuhayKPam

 

 

#AgustD #DDay

Unexpected flaws piled up in layers create the afterimages of my multiple selves.

Not getting intimidated but rebelling and raising questions against contradictions of countless conditions the world demands.

---D-Day

#AgustD, how could you? How could your album mean so much?

If Jimin’s #FACE could make a person appreciate his weaknesses and vulnerabilities more, #Suga or AgustD’s #DDay will break your heart but will leave you fearless (that is, if you aren’t yet).

It was truly a perfect timing that I got to watch his Disney+ documentary #RoadToD-DAY first before getting to see his #AMYGDALA MV. The docu is all about his “journey to find new stories and inspire new dreams” as he creates his solo album. And it will make you understand and appreciate him more.

What do you think are the chances of a totally controllable future arriving?

There’s a high chance that the future you dreaded never happens.

This is the story I wanted to share with you.

People always worry about the uncertainty of the future. They fear it.

And they’re distressed over the past that they can’t change.

But the only thing you can control is the present.

I want to share stories that focus on the present.

The past is the past. The present is the present. The future is the future.

Put too much meaning into them and they will torment you.

It’s up to the listeners to judge my work, and only time will tell…

“I don’t know your name…” His painful memories - of his parents’ health, of his accident and injury, his mental health issues, his struggles. I now understand why he seems the most serious among the seven members of #BTS (in fact, his gummy smile is one in a million). And I didn’t realize how soothing and comforting his singing voice could be. No wonder, he is a top bias-wrecker.

#AMYGDALA brought tears to my eyes as I too recall my dark days when I myself was having depression and I didn’t know it yet that time. Darkness would envelop me, I didn’t know what was happening. And if you weren’t too mindful or if you won’t be able to figure out what was going on, it will make you do things that are not right. And coming out of it alive now, fear becomes just a word. Nothing will scare you anymore.

“Depression causes the hippocampus to raise its cortisol levels, impeding the development of neurons in your brain. The shrinkage of brain circuits is closely connected to the reduction of the affected part's function. While other cerebral areas shrink due to high levels of cortisol, the amygdala enlarges. The amygdala controls emotion, so this may cause issues like sleep disturbances, mood swings, and other hormone-related problems. An enlarged amygdala is also linked to the development of bipolar disorder.” (https://www.transformationstreatment.center/treatment/what-happens-to-the-brain-during-depression/)

He had a lot of heartbreaking experiences. And he tells us through his music that while we acknowledge those, these old demons must not rule us or have this power over us. "What didn't kill me only made me stronger...And I begin to bloom like a lotus flower once again..." Like a lotus flower, he bloomed beautifully above the mud and water.

In making music that comforts fans all over the world, idols don’t seem to have anyone to comfort them when it’s their turn to be alone, lonely and tired. #AgustD leaves a message to aspiring artists via #Snooze (ft. Ryuichi Sakamoto & WOOSUNG of The Rose):

“You who sleep for your dreams, it's okay to rest..””

Just laugh out loud

As if the world is leaving

Just hold on

Wherever you are

I hope your dream won't just be left as a dream

I'll cheer you on anytime, anywhere (Dream)…”

“You will fully bloom, after all the hardships

The beginning may be weak, but the end may be great…”

The lyrics of his songs may strike a painful chord, but there is calmness and healing in the end. #DDay reminds us that no matter how ugly some of our memories and past experiences are, liberation is waiting. Beautiful days will come and you will be free…

“The world’s bullshit, but you don’t have to be / So open your eyes and see the real world.”

#DDay is the third #AgustD release, after his self-titled 2016 mixtape and 2020's D-2.

Tracks:

• D-Day
• Haegeum
• HUH?! (ft. j-hope)
• AMYGDALA
• SDL
• People Pt. 2 (ft. IU)
• Polar Night
• Interlude: Dawn
• Snooze (ft. Ryuuichi Sakamoto and WOOSUNG of The Rose)
• Life Goes On

#talesofthegoodgirl #KPam

If I Never Met You...

"Don't worry for not being with us in the beginning, the day you found us is the day we debuted for you..."  - Min Yoongi 😻 

BTS has been around for 9 years but as they say, you will find them at the right time. True enough, they came into my life when I needed them the most. I was struggling with my health issues early 2021. At that time, I didn't know what was happening to me, going back and forth to doctors. In the meantime, I started to have cardio workouts with their music, got acquainted with their danceable hits, and I just thought, ililigtas nitong mga batang ito ang buhay ko. I never thought there would be mornings na pasayaw-sayaw ako with Dionysus or Boy with Luv or Mic Drop 😄

Tita, sino ung may green na mic sa BTS. Napopogihan ako, I found myself telling my Army sister. Took a while before I could tell who is who, parang magkakamukha silang lahat, you get my drift...Pag walang green mic, d ko na makilala ung napopogihan ko. Then, after a while, ahhh iba yung mata. And that sealed the luv affair. Yes, it was V (Taehyung).

Then I was diagnosed with AD and MDD. I was plunging into darkness, falling into the dark side. But still, there they were, pulling me out. And for this, I will forever be grateful. BTS does not know it, but they really saved my life just by being BTS. Their music, their presence, their talent, their good looks, their values, what they stand for...their humor, the closeness, the positivity and loving yourself...it's been a while since NKOTB na nagbuhos ako ng panahon to a band...and I just kept on being saved.

Never mind if I came in late. Ok lang. Ok na ko dun. 

Thank you kahit sandali pa lang akong Army. Purple became more meaningful to me. Sobra-sobra na ang ginawa ninyong pagsagip sa buhay ko. Yung keeping me sane and mentally safe during the pandemic...how you took me out of the dark many times...yun lang sapat na. Na I even got to meet fellow Armys, keber na sa age hahaha

Making us proud with your achievements (Blue House, UN, White House), yung journey ninyo over the years. Ibang klase. Pag pinapanuod ko sila, naiisip ko, hindi ba sila napapagod? Hindi naman na sila mga teenager para humataw nang ganun hahaha yung PTD concert lang eh...Hindi ba sila nagsasawa? Yung halos araw araw, ganun ang ginagawa nila? So ayun na nga...napapagod nga rin sila...

But they are doing this beautifully...gumawa na sila ng marami para marami tayong baon while they're pursuing their dreams individually...

Si Proof pa lang (na akala ko magkakaworld tour na uli)...

Looking forward to their solo albums, solo projects...Wooga Squad!!!

Finding the balance between whom we wish to be and whom we need to be. Ibigay na natin sa kanila. Sabi nga, if you want to find the trail, if you want to find yourself, you must explore your dreams alone...perhaps this is what they need at this point.

I wasn't with them in the beginning

But I will be, until the end and

For the rest of my life...

And this I think is more important to me 😭

Run free, boys...

Don't worry...when you look back, you will find us just right behind you...

#talesofthegoodgirl