Erica Barry: I don't want my bearings. I've had my bearings my whole goddamn life. I feel something with you I never really knew existed. Do you know what that's like, after a 20-year marriage to feel something for another person that is so...? That... Oh, Right. Right. Not your problem. God. Do you know that I've written this, but I never really got it? Do you know what this is?
- Something's Gotta Give (2003)
Do you have, or have you had, a “eureka” or “a-ha!” moment?
Mine comes in the form of goosebumps.
I get goosebumps when I suddenly feel something
life-changing, when I discover something, when I make up my mind to do
something, when I finally say “This is it”, when I snap myself out of
something, like when I've had enough and that has got to stop, I have to give
it up, let it go or I have to move on. Something’s gotta give. Hell, yeah.
This is the signal I usually get when I have to make an
important decision, and it’s not always a calm or serene moment. Sometimes
there’s a war going on inside me and I don’t know which option to take or path
to choose. Sometimes it takes a while before I say, “Ok, that’s it,” like a
director yelling “Pack up” to his crew.
That’s the moment when there’s a tingling, hair-raising,
prickly feeling that’s telling me something. I admit that it’s taken me quite a
while to finally pay attention to the goosebumps. They've been popping up for
sometime but I would always ignore them. But they are too frequent to overlook.
There have been signs everywhere, without me asking for it. I knew that it was
too good to be true, it cannot continue forever, and that something would
happen sooner or later.
And I think this is it.
I’m going back to purple. And I think I will cry first.
~TheGoodGirl
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